If I Could Believe

I never knew that I could feel so lonely,
I never thought I’d end up here alone.
But now I sit here in this empty room,
Wondering how I didn’t know.

The silence screams so loud it shakes the walls,
The fading light still dances on the floor.
I keep the lamp on for you by the door,
Your voice still echos down the hall.

If I could believe I earned this pain somehow,
If I could believe I’m fine here by myself.
If I could believe there’s nothing left to save,
If I could believe you’re not coming home again.

The clock still ticks like it’s expecting something,
The chair still rocks like you’re in it again.
Your scent lingers softly in every room,
And it whispers your name.

The silence screams so loud it shakes the walls,
The fading light still dances on the floor.
I keep the lamp on for you by the door,
Your voice still echos down the hall.

If I could believe I earned this pain somehow,
If I could believe I’m fine here by myself.
If I could believe there’s nothing left to save,
If I could believe you’re not coming home again.

The door creaks like it remembers you,
It knows the rhythm of your walking shoes.
I kept the stained mug you liked best,
It’s the only piece of you I have left.

The silence screams so loud it shakes the walls,
The fading light still dances on the floor.
I keep the lamp on for you by the door,
Your voice still echos down the hall.

If I could believe that you had to go away,
If I could believe you just couldn’t stay.
If I could believe the pain I feel each day,
If I could believe these memories will fade.

If I could believe this is how we end,
If I could believe I lost my best friend.
If I could believe this broken heart will mend,
If I could believe you’re not coming home again.