Choices Made

Choices I made caused so much pain,
Insecurity crept back out again,
The things I did I can’t explain,
And I only have myself to blame.

Three thousand miles tore us apart,
Shattered my soul and broke my heart.
Left me bleeding in the dark,
Nursing my pride and counting my scars.

And we could have been so great,
So many memories yet to create,
So many adventures for us to take,
Oh, we could have been so great.

Never saw the world through your eyes,
Never learned to compromise,
Could have done better, but didn’t try,
I couldn’t change, not sure why.

Sitting here, hurting so much,
Sitting here counting the cost,
Of what I am and what I’m not,
Of what I had and what I lost.

And we could have been so great,
So many mornings for us to awake,
So much love for us to embrace.
Oh, we could have been so great.

I’m waiting here haunted and afraid,
Paying the price for the mess I made.
Chasing shadows as the daylight fades,
Hoping you might come back some day.

I hope you saw the best in me,
Who I am and who I try to be.
I know I am not what you need,
But I wish you were here with me.

And we could have been so great,
So many sunsets for us to chase.
So many fears for us to face.
Oh, we could have been so great.

On these lonely nights I dream of you,
Of spending the rest of my days with you,
Life didn’t go how I wanted it to.
But in my sleep these lies are true.

The morning chases these dreams away,
Reality finds me right where I lay,
But I need to get up, face the day,
And accept that you couldn’t stay.

I tried so hard, and so did you,
But we lost our way far too soon,
Such a waste of me and you,
You were so very hard to lose.

And we could have been so great,
So many chances for us to take,
A whole life to navigate,
Oh, we could have been so great.

And we could have been so great,
This is the price for my mistake,
I’m ready to change, but it’s too late,
But we could have been so great.