Just Pretend

The day drips away, such wasted time,
Mourning moments that weren’t even mine.
Memories blur and they turn to grey,
They lose their shape and fade away.

You’re out of sight and out of mind,
I’ve left the past somewhere behind.
I have no idea what it is I feel,
I don’t know, if I ever will.

One day soon, I’ll find a reason to stay.
One day soon, I’ll find my own way.
One day soon, I’ll know where I stand.
One day soon, I’ll know who I am.

What if this is as good as it gets?
What if I never find the fix?
What if this is the best I can do?
What if I can never tell you the truth?

I wear failure like a second skin,
But nothing drowns the ache within.
Dizzy and sick as the planet spins,
I repeat the same mistakes again and again.

One day soon, I’ll find a reason to stay.
One day soon, I’ll find my own way.
One day soon, I’ll know where I stand.
One day soon, I’ll know who I am.

I just want to be like everyone else,
Get by without hating myself.
Step into the spotlight, out of the rain,
I just want to start all over again.

I am a faker, I do it well.
Close to my chest, no one can tell.
I tell myself these lies are true,
And there’s nothing more that I can do.

Where do you go when there’s nowhere to go?
What do you show when there’s nothing to show?
Where do you go when there’s nowhere to go?
What do you show when there’s nothing to show?
Where do you go when there’s nowhere to go?

One day soon, I’ll find a reason to stay.
One day soon, I’ll find my own way.
One day soon, I’ll know where I stand.
One day soon, I’ll know who I am.

What if I can’t stop living this lie?
What if I never figure out why?
If I opened my eyes, would I see,
Who I am, or who I’m meant to be?

This life is just a trick of the light.
I hold on tight but it’s passing me by.
I don’t know if any of this is real.
And I’m not sure if I ever will.