The Pain I Feel

The pain I feel, is real,
And it won’t go away.
It’s chemistry, a part of me,
That I just can’t escape.
It comes at night, wants a fight,
Why won’t it let me be?
Standing over me, I try to breathe,
It’s got a hold on me.

I stand my ground, won’t back down,
Headfirst I dive, into the fight.
You won’t see, the fear in me,
I keep it hidden, out of sight.
I need to win, this war within,
This struggle raging deep inside.
What can I do, to be more like you?
Being ok must feel so nice.

It’s in my head, the storm within.
These monsters circle all around.
They throw me down, down to the ground,
But I keep getting up again.
And I can’t take, the noise they make,
I cover my ears but it gets through,
Too late, it’s more than I can take,
This is a battle I might lose.

I stand my ground, won’t back down,
Headfirst I dive, into the fight.
You won’t see, the fear in me,
I keep it hidden, out of sight.
I need to win, this war within,
This struggle raging deep inside.
What can I do, to be more like you?
Being ok must feel so nice.

These walls close in, locking me in,
Shadows crawl out of the dark.
It’s so surreal, how I feel,
And it’s tearing me apart.
Deep inside, a flame survives,
And it can’t be put to sleep.
A voice comforts me, a little levity,
Making promises it can’t keep.

I stand my ground, won’t back down,
Headfirst I dive, into the fight.
You won’t see, the fear in me,
I keep it hidden, out of sight.
I need to win, this war within,
This struggle raging deep inside.
What can I do, to be more like you?
Being ok must feel so nice.

What can I do, to be like you?
Feeling ok must be, so nice.