Author: Nine Lives Lost

  • Nothing Left To Steal

    Nothing Left To Steal

    I don’t have too much,
    But Iā€™ve got just enough,
    And I donā€™t need much more,
    I donā€™t need much at all.

    You might take these long days,
    But I’ll keep these tired nights,
    You might call this living,
    But I’m not sure you’re right.

    You may think you own me,
    You may think that was our deal,
    But you can’t take more than I have,
    Thereā€™s nothing left here to steal.

    I hate the concrete under my feet,
    I hate the endless flights of stairs,
    I hate these humming, buzzing lights,
    And I hate the thick, suffocating air.

    These old shoes gather weight,
    With each and every step I take,
    Kick them off, throw them away,
    I need to escape this place.

    You may think you own me,
    You may think that was our deal,
    But you can’t take more than I have,
    Thereā€™s nothing left here to steal.

    Swept into the raging rapids,
    Dragged under by the show,
    Gasping with each desperate stroke,
    It’s the only life we know.

    Corporate lies fool glassy eyes,
    Broken promises in their place,
    Insanity alive far and wide,
    Caught up in this crazy rat race.

    Desperation colours this weathered face,
    My fists are clenched and they shake,
    This is my lot, like it or not,
    And it’s more than I can take.

    Wake up! Come on and wake up,
    Open up your tired eyes.
    Get up! Come on and get up,
    Donā€™t let another moment slip by.

    Speak up! Come on and speak up,
    Let your voice be heard.
    Change it! Come on and change it,
    Let this whole place burn!

    You may think you own me,
    You may think that was our deal,
    But you can’t take more than I have,
    Thereā€™s nothing left here to steal.

    You may think you own me,
    You may think that was our deal,
    But you can’t take more than I have,
    Thereā€™s nothing left here to steal.

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  • Dance With Monsters

    Dance With Monsters

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    There are times when it feels like the world is full of voices telling us what to think, how to feel, and what to follow. “Lie With the Saints” was written as a response to that culture of influence. The song asks why so many people put their trust in figures who do not deserve it, who either do not know what they are doing or simply do not care about the damage they cause. It is a critique of the influencer mindset and a reflection on how easily people can be led when they are searching for answers.

    The verses weave images of false leaders calling for wars that never arrive, setting fires they cannot contain, and hiding behind pride while their lies spread. These characters march with conviction but without purpose, propped up by delusion and controlled by those who hold real power. Their words may sound convincing, but the song exposes them as empty, harmful, and unworthy of the trust they demand.

    The chorus makes the central point clear. This was never a war, so what are you fighting for? It is a call-out to those who manufacture causes for the sake of ego or profit. The song paints the struggle on walls that fade as quickly as the next trending ideology. In the end, the lines they draw are fake, offering nothing more than a choice between dancing with monsters or lying with saints.

    The bridge drives home the warning. Believing your way is the only way, speaking loudly enough to sway the masses, does not make you right. Pride and blame may keep people locked in place, but change is impossible without self-reflection.

    “Lie With the Saints” is not just about pointing fingers at influencers or false leaders. It is about the responsibility we all share to look deeper, to question who we follow, and to remember that pride without truth only leads us further astray.

  • Dance With Monsters

    Dance With Monsters

    You said the sky was falling, but the thunder never came.
    You set fire to the silence, then turned and ran away.
    You drew a line in they ashes, but couldnā€™t stop the flame,
    The shadows danced along the walls, calling out your name.

    You wear your pride like armour, but the arrows still get through.
    You scream your little lies, and swear theyā€™re true.
    You say youā€™re lost and broken, but wonā€™t take my hand.
    The secrets that you keep, saved for the dammed.

    This was never a war, so what are you fighting for?
    Painting the ways of today, all over the walls.
    These lines that you make, have become so fake,
    You can dance with monsters, or lie with the saints.

    You stand up straight, you stand up tall,
    Marching on the little ones, without a thought at all.
    You haven’t found a purpose, you’ve found a cause.
    You’ve sold your soul, just to start a war.

    Fuelled by delusion, you play your role,
    Doing exactly what you’re told, by those in control.
    You walk the razor’s edge, and defy the truth,
    Still looking for redemption, but where’s the proof?

    This was never a war, so what are you fighting for?
    Painting the ways of today, all over the walls.
    These lines that you make, have become so fake,
    You can dance with monsters, or lie with the saints.

    It’s easy to think, your way’s the only way,
    But the things you say lead the masses astray.
    You look around, for someone else to blame,
    Haunted by pride, unable to change.

    This was never a war, so what are you fighting for?
    Painting the ways of today, all over the walls.
    These lines that you make, have become so fake,
    You can dance with monsters, or lie with the saints.

    You can dance with monsters, or lie with the saints.

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  • Come Back Someday

    Come Back Someday

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    There are songs that you polish, rewrite, and refine until they shine. Then there are songs like Come Back Someday. Written many years ago, this one has stayed almost exactly as it was the day it came out. It is not perfect, and it was never meant to be. It is raw, unfiltered emotion captured in the middle of heartbreak, and we kept it that way because it still speaks to that time in life.

    The song is about longing for someone who has gone, the sleepless nights wondering where they are, the sting of imagining them with someone else, and the quiet hope that maybe, one day, they will find their way back. It moves between pain and acceptance, between wanting them to be happy and wishing that happiness could still be with you.

    The repeated choruses carry the heartbeat of the song, a mixture of prayer, patience, and persistence. Even in the face of loss, there is the belief that tomorrow might be better, that time might heal, and that love might return.

    Come Back Someday is not just about the person it was written for. It is about anyone who has held on to hope even when it felt impossible. It is about the kind of love that leaves an imprint you cannot ignore, even years later. And sometimes, it is about leaving the words exactly as they were, because they still hold the truth of who you were when you wrote them.

  • Come Back Someday

    Come Back Someday

    Iā€™m not ok,
    Struggled through the day,
    Lost in the shadows,
    Since you went away.

    I know you had your reasons,
    But I sure wish you would come home,
    I don’t feel safe, only sorry,
    So lost, scared and alone.

    I’m not ok, why won’t you stay,
    I’ll get through the days, somehow some way,
    I’ll sit here and wait, sit here and pray,
    And hope that tomorrow, will be a better day.

    Couldn’t sleep last night,
    No matter how hard I tried,
    Thoughts rushing through my head,
    Of you with someone else instead.

    It just doesn’t seem right,
    You’ve got someone new in your life.
    But I just can’t see,
    How he could love you more than me.

    I’m not ok, why won’t you stay,
    I’ll get through the days, somehow some way,
    I’ll sit here and wait, sit here and pray,
    And hope that tomorrow, will be a better day.

    Do you ever miss me?
    ‘Cause I think about you all the time,
    But I really want you to be happy,
    Even if it means youā€™re not mine.

    This is the price of living,
    But know I try to do what is right,
    Sometimes the things I do seem crazy,
    But they get me through the night.

    I’m not ok, why won’t you stay,
    I’ll get through the days, somehow some way,
    I’ll sit here and wait, sit here and pray,
    And hope that tomorrow, will be a better day.

    I’m not ok, come back and stay,
    Don’t forget what we had, don’t let it fade,
    If I did something wrong, I can change,
    I hope you come back, come back someday.

    Come back someday.

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  • I’m OK

    I’m OK

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    Sometimes, all it takes to keep going is knowing someone has your back. Iā€™m OK was written for that person, the one who is always there no matter how hard the day or how loud the noise of the world becomes.

    The song opens with the reassurance that even when life is messy, you can keep moving forward because you know someone is waiting for you at the end of the road. That image carries through every chorus, showing that no matter the distance or the challenges, there is a safe place and a safe person who makes it all worthwhile.

    The verses take us into the struggle, feeling judged, misunderstood, and caught in the relentless grind of daily life. Yet each time the weight feels too much, there is a reminder of that anchor, that constant presence who has sheltered you from the rain and chased the darkness away.

    The bridge makes it personal. It is not just about being supported, but about being saved again and again by someone you trust completely. That is where the songā€™s heart beats the loudest, in the gratitude and love for the person who refuses to let you fall.

    At its core, Iā€™m OK is a love letter to unwavering loyalty. It is a celebration of friendship, partnership, and the rare kind of connection that gives you the courage to stand tall when the world tries to knock you down.

  • I’m OK

    I’m OK

    I’m ok, I’ll be fine,
    I got to look further down the line,
    Where I know you’ll be waiting for me.
    You’ll be waiting for me
    I’m ok, Iā€™ll be fine,
    Got to leave these troubles behind,
    Because you’re all I need,
    You’re everything to me.

    The things we see don’t mean that much,
    And they’re different for each of us,
    Caught in the hum of the machine,
    The meaning not what I want it to mean.

    I canā€™t escape no matter how I try,
    Can’t figure it out and wonder why,
    Wonder how I’ll get by,
    But I’ve got you, I’ll be alright.

    I’m ok, I’ll be fine,
    I got to look further down the line,
    Where I know you’ll be waiting for me.
    You’ll be waiting for me
    I’m ok, Iā€™ll be fine,
    Got to leave these troubles behind,
    Because you’re my masterpiece,
    You’re everything to me.

    I can feel them judging me,
    Telling me who I should be,
    Seeing what they want to see,
    And I’m lost in between.

    And I hear them every day,
    All the things these people say,
    Why won’t they just go away,
    Why won’t they let me be?

    I’m ok, I’ll be fine,
    I got to look further down the line,
    Where I know you’ll be waiting for me.
    You’ll be waiting for me
    I’m ok, Iā€™ll be fine,
    Got to leave these troubles behind,
    Because you set me free,
    You’re everything to me.

    You got me through these troubled days,
    Sheltered me from the pouring rain,
    Took the darkness, chased it away,
    You made today, a better day.

    And you’re my best friend,
    Here with me until the very end,
    You’ve saved me again and again,
    You’re my best friend,

    I’m ok, I’ll be fine,
    I got to look further down the line,
    Where I know you’ll be waiting for me.
    You’ll be waiting for me
    I’m ok, Iā€™ll be fine,
    Got to leave these troubles behind,
    Because you’re all I need,
    You’re everything to me.

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  • Rising Water

    Rising Water

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    Iā€™ve been incredibly lucky in life, blessed with more than my share of truly special people. Iā€™m grateful for the friends whoā€™ve stood beside me through every chapter, and for the kind of loyalty and connection that time canā€™t fade. Rising Water is my way of honouring those friendships that last forever, no matter the distance, the years, or the storms we face.

    When the song was first written, it lived as a tender, emotional ballad with soft chords, warm tones, and a classic singer-songwriter intimacy. It was heartfelt, but over time, I could feel it wanting to breathe differently.

    So we reimagined it as a 90s throwback. The core feeling stayed the same, but we gave it new energy: jangly guitars, steady bass lines, and a shimmering layer of nostalgia. Now it feels like the kind of track youā€™d hear in the middle of a road trip scene from a coming-of-age movie, uplifting but deeply rooted in emotion.

    The lyrics walk you through every promise and reassurance: being there through sunshine and snow, through the moments when plans fall apart, and in the times when life feels overwhelming. Itā€™s a simple, timeless message: you are never alone, and you never will be.

    For those who grew up in the 90s, thereā€™s a familiar comfort here, like rewinding a cassette to your favourite track because it just felt like home. For anyone hearing it for the first time, itā€™s a reminder that real friendship, like a great song, will always stand the test of time.

  • Rising Water

    Rising Water

    You could be a thousand miles from home,
    But you’re never alone,
    No matter where the days take you,
    I’ll be right beside you.

    When the world gets you down,
    I will be around.
    And if trouble finds its way to you,
    I will be there too.

    I just want to let you know,
    Wherever you may go,
    I won’t be far behind,
    Never far behind.
    I just want to let you know,
    Through the highs and through the lows,
    We’ll be fine.
    You’re a friend of mine.

    You might not like where you’ve come from,
    But the past is long gone,
    And you might not know where you’re going now,
    There’s still time to work that out.

    And it might be cold and dark tonight,
    But a new start comes with every sunrise.
    And if you stumble, if you fall,
    All you need to do is call.

    I just want to let you know,
    Wherever you may go,
    I won’t be far behind,
    Never far behind.
    I just want to let you know,
    Through the rain and through the snow,
    We’ll be fine.
    You’re a friend of mine.

    It’s alright if you lose your way,
    Getting lost is still okay.
    And if the plans you make fall through,
    I will be right there for you.

    If the rising waters get too deep,
    Reach out your hand for me,
    Weā€™ll battle the unforgiving weather,
    And weā€™ll stay afloat together.

    I just want to let you know,
    Wherever you may go,
    I won’t be far behind,
    Never far behind.
    I just want to let you know,
    Through the wild winds that blow,
    We’ll be fine.
    You’re a friend of mine.

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  • Last Drive

    Last Drive

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    “Last Drive” is the second part of the story that began with Last Dream of You. Where the first song was a quiet, almost dreamlike reflection on a love slipping away, Last Drive puts us firmly in the present ā€” behind the wheel, in motion, with time running out.

    Itā€™s a journey through the hours that follow that dream, when reality is unavoidable. The headlights cut through the darkness, white lines flick past, and the silence between two people becomes heavier than the night outside. Are they driving away from a relationship thatā€™s ended? Are they sharing one last ride before an even deeper farewell?

    What it does give you is the feeling: the rush of air through an open window, the weight of a hand that wonā€™t be there tomorrow, the way every mile feels like both escape and loss. Together, Last Dream of You and Last Drive form a two-part story ā€” one rooted in love, distance, and the haunting beauty of goodbye. One is the dream; the other is the moment you wake up, start the car, and drive into whatever comes next.

  • Last Drive

    Last Drive

    We took the back roads as the daylight faded,
    The dust that’s rising waves goodbye to the dreams we made.
    The daylight battled bravely, but this fight is done,
    It spills onto the road, slips away, the night has won.

    Headlights burning bright, pushing back the night,
    Cutting tunnels through the dark as we drive tonight.
    The shadows in the distance come alive as we draw near,
    They dance once just for us and then disappear.

    So we drive this road tonight,
    Lost and lonely, God knows where we’re going,
    With every passing mile, we say goodbye to whatā€™s behind.
    Making deals with the night, trying to buy some more time.
    Holding on so tight, praying we’ll be alright.
    So we keep driving tonight, trying to make daylight,
    Because all we’ve got left are these white lines.

    Our soundtrack’s playing, you’re wrapped up safe and warm,
    I look for one more perfect smile as your favourite song comes on.
    One hand on the wheel, the other reaching out for you,
    But I can feel you drift away, and there’s nothing I can do.

    So I hold you tighter, but you turn and look away,
    We’re out of happy ever-afters and there’s still so much to say.
    Welling eyes blur road signs, guideposts lost in the haze,
    Less road ahead than behind, on this our final day.

    So we drive this road tonight,
    Lost and lonely, God knows where we’re going,
    With every passing mile, we say goodbye to whatā€™s behind.
    Making deals with the night, trying to buy some more time.
    Holding on so tight, praying we’ll be alright.
    So we keep driving tonight, trying to make daylight,
    Because all we’ve got left are these white lines.

    Pulling back these years, I re-tell each day,
    Such beautiful stories for you to take on your way.
    Thanks for these moments, these precious memories,
    I’ll hold them tight for the rest of my life, they’re everything to me.

    Your light fades dim into the night, I can hardly breathe,
    My body aches, my heart breaks, and I struggle to believe,
    But I’ve said my last goodbye, lost all there is to lose,
    So I’ll close my eyes one last time, for one last dream of you.

    So we drive this road tonight,
    Lost and lonely, God knows where we’re going,
    With every passing mile, we say goodbye to whatā€™s behind.
    Making deals with the night, trying to buy some more time.
    Holding on so tight, praying we’ll be alright.
    So we keep driving tonight, trying to make daylight,
    Because all we’ve got left are these white lines.

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  • Fist Full Of Nothing

    Fist Full Of Nothing

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    There are days when the mind feels like a crowded roomā€”voices arguing over a life that wonā€™t sit still. ā€œFist Full Of Nothingā€ starts there: empty-handed but overburdened, caught between who you are and who youā€™re told to be. The verses walk that edge: the pressure to wear the ā€œways of today,ā€ to keep the peace, to pretend. The storms donā€™t just blow through, they erase, turning old maps into ash. What mattered yesterday lies scattered at your feet.

    The chorus answers with something simple and human: stop. Lie back on the concrete path. Count the stars. Let the world keep spinning without you. Itā€™s not defeat; itā€™s a truce. A reminder that youā€™re allowed to step out of the rush, even if only for three minutes and change. In that pause, your breath gets louder than the noise. Your body remembers what calm feels like.

    This song isnā€™t about giving up, itā€™s about regrouping. The bridge wonders out loud about the road ahead, what we trade to keep going, whether the fight is still worth it. Those questions donā€™t get tidy answers, but the asking itself is honest, and that honesty is the point. We donā€™t have to solve everything tonight. We just have to make space to hear ourselves think.

    So if youā€™re overwhelmed, take the song at its word. Find a patch of ground, any ground. Let your eyes close. Feel the grass. Let the engines and deadlines blur into the distance. When you stand up again, the world will still be there, but you might not want to return to it in quite the same way. Maybe youā€™ll carry a little stillness back with you. Maybe youā€™ll take a different road. Either way, for the length of this song, you get to be weightless.

  • Fist Full Of Nothing

    Fist Full Of Nothing

    Iā€™ve got a fistful of nothing and a head full of noise,
    Iā€™ve got a heart full of sorrow and a bottle of pills.
    Iā€™m caught between who I am and who I want to be,
    Racing, raging, daylight fading, itā€™s all the same to me.

    Set out on this journey, lost right from the start,
    Traveled this road, carried this load, didnā€™t get very far.
    Wearing the ways of today so I donā€™t offend,
    They keep telling me who I should be, so I just pretend.

    So lay back on the concrete path and stare up at the stars,
    Forget about your troubles, let the world spin right on past.
    Hold on to this moment, because the days go by so fast.
    Just let go, let your eyes close, enjoy it while it lasts.

    Roaring storms thundering ravage all that came before,
    Making a mess of what was left, and really nothing more.
    All the things I cared about, the world I once knew,
    Lying in pieces on the ground, for the sake of the precious few.

    So lay back on the concrete path and stare up at the stars,
    Forget about your troubles, let the world spin right on past.
    Hold on to this moment, because the days go by so fast.
    Just let go, let your eyes close, enjoy it while it lasts.

    I wonder if weā€™ll be okay, and which road weā€™ll choose,
    I wonder what weā€™ll give up, and what we have to lose.
    I wonder why I think this way, and what difference I could make,
    I wonder if itā€™s worth it, or if itā€™s just too late.

    So lay back on the concrete path and stare up at the stars,
    Forget about your troubles, let the world spin right on past.
    Hold on to this moment, because the days go by so fast.
    Just let go, let your eyes close, enjoy it while it lasts.

    So lay back on the concrete path and stare up at the stars,
    Forget about your troubles, let the world spin right on past.
    Hold on to this moment, because the days go by so fast.
    Just let go, let your eyes close, enjoy it while it lasts.

    Just let go, let your eyes close, enjoy it while it lasts.

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  • Different Worlds

    Different Worlds

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    ā€œDifferent Worldsā€ was written on my first trip to the Philippines. It was the moment that opened my eyes to a reality Iā€™d never truly seen before. Walking through the streets, I encountered people in desperate needā€”people begging for help, struggling to survive, living lives so far removed from my own. What struck me most wasnā€™t just their hardship, but the way they were treated by the very people who came to visit. The tourists seemed to see them as invisible, dismissing them with indifference, perhaps out of discomfort or simply because they were too busy with their own lives. It was a stark reminder of how different the world can be from one place to another.

    That day, Little Big Gift was born in my heart. I came back home, filled with a sense of guilt and frustration. I gave away most of my belongings and started living a simpler lifeā€”one that felt more in tune with the people I had seen in need. The song ā€œDifferent Worldsā€ encapsulates that feelingā€”the realization that we often live in our own bubble, unaware or indifferent to the struggles of others. Itā€™s about how we can become so focused on our own lives that we forget how connected we all truly are.

    The lyrics of “Different Worlds” reflect that mindset of detachment, of someone passing by without acknowledging the pain in front of them. Itā€™s a raw exploration of apathy and the gulf between privileged and underprivileged lives. The narrator, in the song, is removed from the suffering they witness. They walk away, unaffected, feeling theyā€™ve earned everything they have, and that those in need are simply the result of their own choices. But for me, that tripā€”seeing that contrastā€”made me realize we all share this world. We all have a responsibility to look out for one another, and thatā€™s what sparked the change in me.

  • Different Worlds

    Different Worlds

    I saw you begging on the street,
    With muddy hands, muddy feet.
    So broken, desperate, in despair,
    But I just don’t really care.
    You ask for help, I wonder why,
    I look away, I walk on by.
    But as for me, I’ll be alright,
    I will sleep so soundly tonight.

    You’re gone and forgotten.
    You’re gone and forgotten.

    Because you and me, we’re not the same,
    Different worlds, different names.
    Different lives, different faces,
    We’re running different races.
    But I made my life,
    And made my way,
    And I donā€™t think twice,
    ‘Cause I’m doing great.

    I saw you there on the stairs,
    Such dirty hands, dirty hair.
    Grubby kid at your side,
    Grubby hands opened wide.
    I don’t know you and I won’t help,
    So go bother someone else,
    Because this life is what you choose,
    Whether you win, whether you lose.

    This was your own doing.
    This was your own doing.

    Because you and me, we’re not the same,
    Different worlds, different names.
    Different lives, different faces,
    We’re running different races.
    But I made my life,
    And made my way,
    And I donā€™t think twice,
    ‘Cause I’m doing great.

    So why are you here, in front of me,
    Looking up so longingly?
    Don’t cry or waste my time,
    Iā€™ve earned all that’s mine!
    So why are you here, in front of me?
    Looking up desperately?
    I’m not one for empathy?
    You’re hurting, but that’s not on me.

    Because you and me, we’re not the same,
    Different worlds, different names.
    Different lives, different faces,
    We’re running different races.
    But I made my life,
    And made my way,
    And I donā€™t think twice,
    ‘Cause I’m doing great.

    I’m doing great!
    I’m doing great!

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  • Move Forward

    Move Forward

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    ā€œMove Forwardā€ is a song about the simple yet powerful act of continuing, no matter the circumstances. Itā€™s about facing each day, despite the inevitable ups and downs, and reminding yourself that nothing lasts foreverā€”not the struggles, not the pain, and not the moments of quiet contentment.

    We all have days that feel repetitive, where things donā€™t go according to plan or where weā€™re stuck in routines that seem unchanging. But sometimes, the real beauty is in accepting those moments and realizing that tomorrow is a new chance. The song captures that spirit of resilience, that constant push to move forward, even when life feels ordinary or a little out of control.

    Sometimes the rain falls, sometimes the people around us donā€™t make sense, but we keep movingā€”because nothing stays the same forever. You canā€™t change everything, but the way you respond to it is in your hands. This song is a reminder that even in the most mundane moments, thereā€™s a reason to keep going. The day will end, and with it, a new one will begin.

  • Move Forward

    Move Forward

    I wake up,
    Take a look outside,
    Rain’s coming down,
    It’s pretty nice.

    Grab up my shoes,
    Head for the door,
    The same thing I’ve done,
    A thousand times before.

    But it’s ok,
    It’s alright,
    The sky might be grey,
    But my day is bright.
    My day is bright.

    Move forward,
    No turning back,
    The wind in my face,
    The sun at my back.

    Move forward,
    ‘Cause nothing lasts,
    Like every minute and hour,
    This too will pass.

    Move forward,
    Today is brand new,
    Things you can’t change,
    Should never change you.
    Never change you.

    The day aches,
    Forget my plans,
    Just stay calm,
    Do the best I can.

    The people come,
    Say what they say,
    Not making sense,
    Doesn’t matter anyway.

    The clock unwinds,
    Ticks through the day,
    Almost done,
    And I’m on my way.
    I’m on my way.

    Move forward,
    No turning back,
    The wind in my face,
    The sun at my back.

    Move forward,
    ‘Cause nothing lasts,
    Like every minute and hour,
    This too will pass.

    Move forward,
    Today is brand new,
    Things you can’t change,
    Should never change you.
    Never change you.

    Head for the bus,
    Leave work behind,
    Push through the crowd,
    Hope itā€™s on time.

    Closed my eyes,
    Missed my stop,
    Thatā€™s another hour,
    Whether I like it or not.

    Got home so late,
    The day is done,
    Head to bed,
    Wait for a new day to come.

    Move forward,
    No turning back,
    The wind in my face,
    The sun at my back.

    Move forward,
    ‘Cause nothing lasts,
    Like every minute and hour,
    This too will pass.

    Move forward,
    Today is brand new,
    Things you can’t change,
    Should never change you.
    Never change you.

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  • Edge

    Edge

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    “Edge” is a song about the disorienting feeling of going through life, from the highs to the lows, and never really understanding any of it. Itā€™s the journey of feeling lost in a world thatā€™s constantly shifting around you, where answers seem out of reach and everything just feelsā€¦ confusing. We all try to make sense of itā€”the moments of joy, the struggles, the victories, the defeatsā€”but in the end, it can all seem like a blur, like weā€™re just tumbling through it without a clear understanding.

    I wrote “Edge” during a time when I was reflecting on the cyclical nature of life. It feels like weā€™re constantly on the edge of somethingā€”whether it’s a breakthrough, a breakdown, or just another step forward. But we never truly know if weā€™re getting any closer to what weā€™re supposed to understand. The songā€™s raw, uncertain tone captures that feeling of being on the edge, of looking over the vastness of life and realizing that, maybe, none of us ever really figure it out.

    The song doesnā€™t offer answers, because I donā€™t think there are any. Itā€™s more about acknowledging the chaos, the confusion, and the endless loop of trying, failing, and trying again. And maybe thatā€™s all we can doā€”keep moving through it, without fully understanding it, just hoping that the next step is the one that leads us to something real.

  • Edge

    Edge

    Standing on the edge,
    And I’m looking out,
    The world stop making sense,
    And I’m just trying to figure it out.

    I watch the night creep in,
    And the people come and go,
    But they’re just as lost as I am,
    And I wonder if they even know.

    And this day begins,
    Like every other day,
    I sit up and I look around,
    But here is where I’ll stay.

    Another day has passed,
    Another night has come,
    Another desperate plea,
    Another promise come undone.

    And I don’t understand,
    Much of what’s going on around me,
    And I’m not thinking straight,
    And my eyes ache, the light is blinding.

    And I don’t understand,
    Much of what anyone is saying,
    I hold my tongue and stay silent,
    But deep inside I’m screaming.

    And I am here all on my own,
    I hear that sound, and now I’m crying,
    And I’ve got no idea,
    Where I’ve been or where I’m going.

    And I am here, caught in the crowd,
    I feel the pain, and now I’m running,
    And I’ve got no idea,
    Where I’ve been or where I’m going.

    And I am here, wandering around,
    I seem confused, and now I’m drowning,
    And I’ve got no idea,
    Where I’ve been or where I’m going.

    And I am here, heading home,
    I see that light, and now I’m flying,
    And I’ve got no idea,
    Where I’ve been or where I’m going.

    And I don’t understand,
    Much of what’s going on around me,
    But this world keeps spinning on,
    With or without me.

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  • Why?

    Why?

    Nine Lives Lost is a bit of a paradox for me. Iā€™m not entirely sure why I keep doing it, but I do. At the heart of it, itā€™s really about the writingā€”getting something out of my head and onto paper. The music comes after that, the words always take the lead. Yes, we make demos, but the words are the driving force. They’re the core of the song, the part that I want to share.

    Weā€™ve had to lean on AI to help package everything up because, frankly, studio time is beyond our reach. Plus, I know I donā€™t have the voice to pull off some of the songs as I envision them. Weā€™ve got songs that are end-to-end traditional, but truthfully, I donā€™t connect with them as much as I do the tracks produced with AI. Donā€™t get me wrong, making music with AI is no walk in the parkā€”itā€™s still a lot of work. And even then, you only get 80-90% of what youā€™re trying to achieve. But itā€™s enough to move the project forward.

    Whatā€™s exciting now is that weā€™re starting to blend the AI-produced tracks with real vocals and instruments, something that feels a bit more like a true collaboration between man and machine. AI has given me a tool that I never had before. In the past ten years, Iā€™ve completed three songs, accumulated hundreds of concepts, and filled up countless notebooks. Before AI, thatā€™s all I hadā€”ideas in my head and a lot of scribbled notes.

    Iā€™d love for making music to be my full-time job, but it isnā€™t. I write when I can, and I do the best with what I have. I donā€™t claim to be a musician, but I still have something to say. I hope that someone out there finds something of value in the stories Iā€™m sharing through my music. If even one person connects with a line, a melody, or a feeling, it makes it all worth it.

  • Belong

    Belong

    This world is so frightening,
    Such thunder, such lightning.
    What Iā€™m seeing, Iā€™m not believing,
    All these things keep me dreaming.

    The rain comes so suddenly,
    Washing away old memories.
    And time has taken its toll,
    Done its work, taken control.

    My journey ends before it begins,
    Searching for comfort around each bend.
    I think I know, but I could be wrong,
    Still chasing the place where I belong.

    I want someone to remember my name.
    I want someone to be glad I came.
    I want someone to think of me sometimes.
    I want someone to share these good times.

    I want someone to help me through.
    I want someone to lean on me too.
    I want to find my way back home.
    I want to belong to someone.

    This road, so long and winding,
    It holds the joy and tears I’m hiding.
    And I know how youā€™re feeling,
    What you hide, what youā€™re revealing.

    I see the weight you’re bearing,
    The hopes and fears youā€™re wearing.
    Though words are few, it might be true,
    You just want to belong too.

    My journey ends before it begins,
    Searching for comfort around each bend.
    I think I know, but I could be wrong,
    Still chasing the place where I belong.

    I want someone to remember my name.
    I want someone to be glad I came.
    I want someone to think of me sometimes.
    I want someone to share these good times.

    I want someone to help me through.
    I want someone to lean on me too.
    I want to find my way back home.
    I want to belong to someone.

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  • Belong

    Belong

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    There are times when it feels like no matter where we go or who weā€™re with, we never quite fit in. Maybe it’s something that everyone feels, at least at some point. Itā€™s that sense of being an outsider, never finding that place where we truly feel like we belong. I wrote this song as an exploration of that feeling, the loneliness of searching for a place to call home, for someone to really see us for who we are.

    It’s a journey of feeling lost, but also longing for connection, for meaning, and for a space where we can just be. We all carry the weight of our own struggles, our hopes, and our fears, often without sharing them. But the truth is, we all want the same thingā€”someone to lean on, someone to remember us, someone to make us feel like we matter. “Belong” is about that search, that need for human connection, and the hope that someday weā€™ll find a place where we truly fit.

  • Spring Came My Way

    Spring Came My Way

    I open my eyes,
    Open them wide,
    Swing open the door,
    Step outside.

    New grass growing,
    Beneath my feet,
    Dancing softly,
    In the warm breeze.

    The morning sun glows,
    Pouring through the trees,
    Lighting up the drops of dew,
    Bouncing off the leaves.

    I’m so happy today,
    Spring came my way.
    Traded working shoes,
    For skies of blue.

    Winter has gone,
    Summer is coming on,
    And I feel the day was made,
    All just for me.

    The flowers so bold,
    With colours so bright,
    Such a vibrant pallet,
    Caught in the soft light.

    The birds up above,
    Singing away,
    Flying around,
    Making my day.

    I’ll stay for a bit,
    Lay back unfurled,
    Basking in the springtime,
    Not a care in the world.

    I’m so happy today,
    Spring came my way.
    Traded working shoes,
    For skies of blue.

    Winter has gone,
    Summer is coming on,
    And I feel the day was made,
    All just for me.

    I’m so happy today,
    Spring came my way.
    Traded working shoes,
    For skies of blue.

    Winter has gone,
    Summer is coming on,
    And I feel the day was made,
    All just for me.

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  • Spring Came My Way

    Spring Came My Way

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    Sometimes, in the middle of life’s darker moments, it’s the simplest things that remind us of the beauty in the world. When I had the word “springtime” written down in my notes, it sparked an idea for something lighter, something different. I wanted to create a song that celebrated nature’s ability to renew itself, a song that captures the joy of watching the earth reboot after a long, cold winter.

    Iā€™m no stranger to writing darker, more introspective songs, but thereā€™s something magical about the way nature pulls itself out of the shadows and into the light, no matter how tough things may feel. Even when life feels heavy, itā€™s pretty hard not to love the freshness of springā€”when the grass starts growing again, the flowers bloom, and the sun finally starts warming everything up. This song is my tribute to that feeling, to the hope and the happiness that comes with the seasons changing. Itā€™s a reminder that even in our hardest moments, the world keeps moving forward, and we can too.

  • Last Dream Of You

    Last Dream Of You

    We took the back roads,
    As the day was fading,
    Not knowing where we’re going,
    It didn’t matter anyway.

    The daylight battles bravely,
    But it flickers then fades,
    Spilling into each crevice,
    Then slips silently away.

    The headlights keeping watch,
    Tell their stories to the night,
    Cutting tunnels through the darkness,
    As we drive this road tonight.

    Silhouettes in the distance,
    Spring to life as they draw near,
    Dancing once just for us,
    Before they disappear.

    This is to be our last road,
    You’re leaving me tonight,
    But I’m not ready for goodbye,
    Please stay just one more night.

    Our soundtrack is playing,
    You’re wrapped up safe and warm,
    I look for one last perfect smile,
    As your favourite song comes on.

    One hand on the wheel,
    The other clinging onto you,
    But I can feel you leaving me,
    And there’s nothing I can do.

    I try to hold you tighter,
    But you start to drift away,
    We are all out of forevers,
    But there’s still much more to say.

    Welling eyes blur the white lines,
    I’m lost, I’m cold, I’m numb,
    The guideposts lost in the haze,
    And our journey is almost done.

    Seconds stretched to hours,
    As I relive this life,
    Perfectly edited stories,
    For my beautiful wife.

    Thank you for your last moments,
    Thank you for these memories,
    Our time cut short,
    But it was everything to me.

    We’ve said our last goodbye,
    You’ve gone and I have too,
    I can finally close my eyes,
    One last dream of you.

    We’ve said our last goodbye,
    You’ve gone and I have too,
    I can finally close my eyes,
    One last dream of you.

    Last dream of you.

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  • Last Dream Of You

    Last Dream Of You

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    “Last Dream of You” ā€” a song that will forever hold a special place in my heart.
    This song came about one night as I drove alone, with nothing but the hum of the road and the flicker of headlights cutting through the dark. It made me reflect on the weight of losing someone and the haunting idea of having to say goodbye. Road trips are usually full of excitement, laughter, and the promise of new memories. But when you’re faced with the reality of loss, that final journey takes on a different meaning ā€” one of quiet reflection and love, but also the finality of time running out.

    “Last Dream of You” captures that fleeting moment when you’re trying to hold onto something thatā€™s slipping away. Itā€™s not about closure, but about the emotional weight of that last drive with someone you canā€™t bear to let go of. That space between saying goodbye and letting go, where everything you wish you could say is left unsaid. It’s raw, it’s emotional, and itā€™s a little dark ā€” but itā€™s real.

    Though this song has morphed into something new in a track called “Last Drive”, “Last Dream of You” will always be the first version, the one that holds so much meaning for me. It may have started as a single moment in time, but it turned into something much bigger ā€” a reflection of love, loss, and the delicate balance between holding on and letting go.

    Iā€™m so grateful for the opportunity to share this moment with you. I hope it resonates with you, wherever you may be in your own journey. Because in the end, itā€™s all about those final dreams ā€” the ones we keep, the ones we let go, and the ones we carry with us forever.

  • Fine On My Own

    Fine On My Own

    Iā€™m standing right in front of you, but you don’t see me.
    I try to tell you how I feel, but you’re not listening.
    Iā€™m pouring out my heart, but you just donā€™t seem to care.
    I reach out desperately, but you’re no longer here.

    People look right through me, they donā€™t even know my name.
    But that’s okay I don’t need them, they can’t save me anyway.
    The road that I am walking, is only wide enough for one.
    But I’m not lonely, I’m just fine on my own.

    I’m turning off all these lights, ’cause I don’t need them.
    No longer afraid of the dark, I’ve got my lantern.
    I hear the war machines, they’re getting louder.
    I can feel the rumbling, and it’s all around now.

    People look right through me, they donā€™t even know my name.
    But that’s okay I don’t need them, they can’t save me anyway.
    The road that I am walking, is only wide enough for one.
    But I’m not lonely, I’m just fine on my own.

    You donā€™t see what I see but that doesnā€™t make me wrong.
    Even though on different paths we hum the same song.
    Take your lonely little world and make it bigger.
    Take aim at what you want and pull the trigger.

    People look right through me, they donā€™t even know my name.
    But that’s okay I don’t need them, they can’t save me anyway.
    The road that I am walking, is only wide enough for one.
    But I’m not lonely, I’m just fine on my own.

    I watch the fading light drain from the tired sky,
    I wait patiently, as another empty day slips by.
    The night shines like a black-and-white movie,
    Stars flicker on the screen, just not for me.

    People look right through me, they donā€™t even know my name.
    But that’s okay I don’t need them, they can’t save me anyway.
    The road that I am walking, is only wide enough for one.
    But I’m not lonely, I’m just fine on my own.

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  • Fine On My Own

    Fine On My Own

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    This song is about feeling invisible. Itā€™s about standing in front of peopleā€”maybe even someone you care aboutā€”and realising they just donā€™t see you. That ache of being overlooked, dismissed, or misunderstood runs deep. But what this song also says is: youā€™re not alone in that feeling. We all face moments where we question our worth or feel like weā€™re walking through the world unseen.
    Itā€™s not okay to feel invisibleā€”but it happens. And when it does, we have two choices: fade further into the background, or find our own light.

    This track is about choosing the second path. Itā€™s about learning to trust your own voice, even when no oneā€™s listening. Itā€™s about finding peace in your own company, even if the road is narrow. Itā€™s about making your own way, on your own termsā€”because no one else is coming to save you, and thatā€™s strangely empowering.

    Some songs are written to shout into the void. This one is about walking through itā€”with your head up, your lantern lit, and a quiet determination to keep going anyway.

  • If I Could Believe

    If I Could Believe

    I never knew that I could feel so lonely,
    I never thought I’d end up here alone.
    But now I sit here in this empty room,
    Wondering how I didn’t know.

    The silence screams so loud it shakes the walls,
    The fading light still dances on the floor.
    I keep the lamp on for you by the door,
    Your voice still echos down the hall.

    If I could believe I earned this pain somehow,
    If I could believe I’m fine here by myself.
    If I could believe there’s nothing left to save,
    If I could believe you’re not coming home again.

    The clock still ticks like it’s expecting something,
    The chair still rocks like you’re in it again.
    Your scent lingers softly in every room,
    And it whispers your name.

    The silence screams so loud it shakes the walls,
    The fading light still dances on the floor.
    I keep the lamp on for you by the door,
    Your voice still echos down the hall.

    If I could believe I earned this pain somehow,
    If I could believe I’m fine here by myself.
    If I could believe there’s nothing left to save,
    If I could believe you’re not coming home again.

    The door creaks like it remembers you,
    It knows the rhythm of your walking shoes.
    I kept the stained mug you liked best,
    Itā€™s the only piece of you I have left.

    The silence screams so loud it shakes the walls,
    The fading light still dances on the floor.
    I keep the lamp on for you by the door,
    Your voice still echos down the hall.

    If I could believe that you had to go away,
    If I could believe you just couldnā€™t stay.
    If I could believe the pain I feel each day,
    If I could believe these memories will fade.

    If I could believe this is how we end,
    If I could believe I lost my best friend.
    If I could believe this broken heart will mend,
    If I could believe you’re not coming home again.

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  • If I Could Believe

    If I Could Believe

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    This song is a quiet storm of unresolved emotion ā€” a meditation on love lost without clarity or closure. It speaks from the hollow centre of heartbreak, where questions remain unanswered, and acceptance feels just out of reach.

    The lyrics unravel the confusion and helplessness that follow the end of a relationship that didn’t end in a fight, a betrayal, or even a clear goodbye ā€” just a slow, silent drift into absence. The narrator is left sitting in an empty room, surrounded by echoes, scents, and objects that still hold the shape of someone whoā€™s no longer there. Every verse is steeped in longing, but what makes it especially painful is the absence of understanding ā€” not knowing what went wrong, or why.

    The chorus wrestles with that desperate, recurring thought: ā€œIf I could just believe…ā€ ā€” a haunting repetition that captures the way grief loops in on itself, looking for reasons, for justice, for meaning. But none come. Itā€™s not just loss; itā€™s ambiguous loss, and that makes healing feel impossible.

    Through subtle, almost mundane imagery ā€” a ticking clock, a creaking door, a coffee mug ā€” the song creates a vivid emotional landscape. These aren’t just props; they’re witnesses to love and its quiet vanishing act.

    At its core, this is a song about trying to make peace with the unknown. Thereā€™s no clean resolution, no grand catharsis ā€” just the aching truth that sometimes people leave, and we never really know why. And all we can do is sit with the ache, replay the memories, and learn how to keep breathing with a heart that still waits by the door.